I think that it is more honest and poetic than anything that I have ever wrote. It moved me to tears the moment that I finished and I think that it needs to be shared with you.
Please enjoy the words and think of how this relates to the current situation you are encountering. Yes, we all are facing something that seems overwhelming, but we will battle through. Each of us are incredibly touch and can handle more than we can imagine.
Therefore, without further adure, here is the best thing I have read in a very long time:
"Homesick is okay. Currently, I am homesick, too. I usually struggle this time of year. This year it’s BIG. I yearn for the real foliage of Vermont and for the smells and sounds that go with it. I yearn for a weekend in Quebec City, where the nighttime walks on uneven cobblestone streets are crisp, the creamy smoked chicken crêpes are delicious, and the lights of the Chateau Frontenac Hotel that guards the city from on the hill are radiant. And, listen, I can hear everyone speaking French. There’s my Dad, speaking French, too. Ohhh, yes, these are my other roots. Doesn’t anyone understand me? It’s who I am, all over again. Also, this is when I want to go to NYC. I love NY in the fall. It’s a time of mourning for me. It seems to be a month of “why are we living in Arizona”, “why is there no culture here”, “am I really going to die here”, and especially a time where I want to be in the family room with my Mom and her two cats, Nicky and Heidi. I want to be just “a daughter” and not a grown-up. Perhaps we’d be eating popcorn or drinking fresh pressed cider. It doesn’t matter. I just want to be there…NOW. So, yes, I understand!
One thing I’ve come to appreciate are “the seasons”, and the importance of their respective changes. That’s what’s really ruling us right now. Yes, this is taking me into the Chinese Five Elements. Sorry, I can’t help myself. Every season represents a change. Spring and Fall bring about the most tumultuous times in people’s lives. Did you know that the highest admission rates for psychiatric hospitals are in the spring/April? Just thought you’d like to know some useless information. But..is it really useless? No. The Fall and Spring are big “transition” times for life. Fall represents the Lung and Large Intestine in Chinese Medical Theory. The smell is pungent (people want more garlic and onions in their food this time of year!!) Yep…pungent! The emotion that’s connected with the Fall is “Grief/Sadness/Mourning. Hello! Is anybody out there? The color is “white”. White reflects all colors, so it’s really not a color at all. Are the reflections real or are they aberrations? What are our minds telling us? Can we trust what our minds tell us? Or, is it the heart that is speaking? Okay…I’m digressing to philosophy here. Back to the Fall. In Fall, we begin to “gather” the harvest of the year. It’s a job to “reflect” on what we’ve done. Did we plant the seeds well in the spring? Did we make the rows straight? Were some uneven? What happened in the summer, the following season? Was this a time of action and joy like it’s supposed to be if we’re in balance, or did we coast a bit and get distracted. Did we act on our crops? Did we weed them? Did we love them? Or, did we somewhat ignore them? If so, we had some weeds and critters that tried to eat the tomatoes. Was it a failure crop or a good crop? So, now, we get to gather “the crop” of life and reflect on it…and prepare it for the dormant season of the deepest reflective time…WINTER. Will our harvest be bountiful to feed us through the cold months, or will we have to ration our food?
By this point, hopefully, you can see the metaphorical meanings that are woven into our life. So, yes…please embrace your “homesickness”, as I’m trying to do the same. We are not the only ones feeling this. I’m trying hard to not search for answers, but to just “see” what life is telling me. I’m trying to be a good listener and observer -trying not “to force” anything."
With much Love I share that. Take a moment to digest and reflect. Too much of the time we spend on this planet is looking for something that we are too scared to see right in front of us.
Be a good listener and accept what is in front of you. :)
Moral: Beauty is around us and accept it. Understand the elements as they will allow you to understand yourself.
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